Veena Lenae

INDIA: Day 2 (Part 1/4)

TRUST is a theme I must embrace here.

As we head to our first temple, I trust I am meant to be on this journey.

We sit down as a group for breakfast at a roadside “restaurant” that is more like a large open-ended food stand with a menu I don’t really understand.  We order family style...

KALI.

She is a Goddess I was told I wasn't ready for in 2015.

My teachers advised me to work with Durga, Lakshmi, & Parvati instead.
They said Kali was too dark for me at that time in my life.

For 2 years I avoided her at all costs.

I was almost afraid of her energy and how it would impact me.

I avoided...

INDIA DAY 1:

I never truly realized what I signed up for when I chose this particular pilgrimage to India.  I knew I would go deeper into Yoga, Hinduism, Tantra, and other topics of my interest, but I never realized how deeply and quickly I would encounter my own shadow side.  

India triggered me from the very beginning....

I arrive in a small hotel room in Kolkata, and began my nearly month-long spiritual pilgrimage in India.

It has taken me 2 international connections, 3 flights, and 2 days & nights in the air to get here. It has also taken 2 years of manifesting, 10 months of planning, and a whole lot of saving.

It almost feels...

I saw you today.

I saw you yesterday, too, but it was different.

Yesterday I saw your face, your little baby spirit, as if you were appearing when I least expect it to let me know you are coming and preparing for your arrival.

Yesterday I saw your face illuminated in a shade of ultraviolet blue— like that ghostly blue you...

When I chose to go to India, a lot of people asked me why.

It wasn’t a simple answer.

I didn’t just have one reason to travel to the other side of the world; I had three:

1. I felt drawn to go to India after hearing my teachers talk about their own journeys.
2. I wanted to understand my yogi roots...

3 years ago, I set out on a journey that would forever change me.

In November & December of 2017, I was called to the Mother Land: INDIA.

I spent just a few days shy of a month both traveling in a group and solo, all while navigating through a new moon, full moon, and a Mercury Retrograde.

I ate, prayed, and loved. I also...

10 YEARS AGO I HAD A DREAM TO JUST HAVE HOLIDAYS OFF FROM WORK.

At the time, I was working in the retail, corporate world.  I was in management and worked nearly every holiday, weekend, and many times I even had to work on special personal days of celebration like family member’s birthdays, anniversaries with my...

I recently had a student come back to my yoga studio after a long hiatus.
As usual, I asked how they were since it had been so long.

“Not good, actually, if I’m being honest.” was the reply.

They then proceeded to tell me the anxiety and panic attacks they had been experiencing on a regular basis, and...